the8thw0nder:

Today was one of the first times in my life that I can remember being… free. Free from all of society’s connotations of what a beautiful woman should look like. Free from the criticism of men and media, free from the constraints of my inner being. I went to a Moroccan “hammam” today, which is a…

This is AMAZING. My heart is so full of love for Tee.

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WOW.

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I am feeling emotionally, relationally, and [sort of] spiritually drained. 

I’m frustrated with asking people how they are, receiving a ten-minute response, and not even a feigned interest in my life or its goings-on.

If someone only contacts you when they want to make use of your gifts (time, money, abilities, or wisdom), they’re probably no friend of yours. Just saying.

Now I’m not saying I don’t like doing these things like listening to people vent or praying with them or doing a favor or something. Those things bring me joy because of who Christ has been to me, and I want my life to be a comprehensive worship. Ministry means doing a lot of those things, and quite often. I expect 1-way connections with people I love who are emotionally/spiritually unable to return the favor, because well, duh.

I guess I just feel “let down” by some of my peeps who identify as disciples. Everyone in the entire world is always going through something difficult; we’re not supposed to take a break from loving people because we have “our own stuff.” I just mean that it’s a 2-way street and I thought we were in this together. I changed my major 5 weeks ago and people I thought I was close to are literally still finding out. At least gimme a “how are you?” without having your own response prepared.

In short - 
Issue: Feeling like an unloved lover, a friend without friends
Catch-22: People, including myself, are ridiculously selfish and generally self-serving. If it doesn’t advance our personal or professional goals, we want nothing to do with it. Recklessly put, nobody cares.
My heart issue: I’m trying to fill a God-sized desire for real relationship with the pathetic ability of man, and it results in anger and loneliness every time. Not to mention, I’m living a bitter, graceless existence where I hate everyone. If I’m not close to Jesus, I can effectively love no one.
But: I probably need some friends that care about me too. 
The only thing I can do: Draw closer to God and allow him to fill me. I’m starving for the real thing.
AND: look inwardly to find out who I’ve been a crappy friend to lately.

“No enthusiasm will ever stand the strain that Jesus Christ will put upon His worker, only one thing will - a personal relationship with Himself which has gone through the mill of His spring-cleaning until there is only one purpose left - ‘I am here for God to send me where he will.’ Every other thing may get fogged, but this relationship with Jesus Christ must never be.”

- Oswald Chambers, The “Go” of Relationship

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I have this thought so often. 

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I remember the first time I heard someone try and pronounce “Ayoade.”

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triplee:

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My friends at Desiring God asked me some questions about the obstacles to manhood and how to fix the problem. Here’s what I said

I so appreciate Trip Lee. He really helps paint a picture of what a humble man walking in faith looks like. 

Yeah, so I’ve posted this on all of my social media. So? I’m absolutely mad for Jennah. This cover is everything.

My least favorite ideology: “That’s good for you, but not for me.” I almost can’t handle it. Relativism is lukewarm poison. When nothing is really true, humans possess the conviction of a dead jellyfish. Your only truth is that there is none.

[This message was brought to you out of frustration towards a person in the church. I need endless grace, but I will not stand by as my Savior’s declared truths are called “good ideas” by someone who identifies with Christ.]

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I’m using this.